Nervous FLAIR

Tomorrow is the day where my FLAIR advocate is coming to assess my lesson..
She sent me an sms saying not to worry with the incomplete assignment..

So important...
But I do not have much confident about the lesson that will be taught..

I always wanted to
give up.
But since I persevered,
I should do my best right?

Hmmm...
Last time I used to tell jokes,
used to be very cheerful
used to get things done as soon as possible
used to go out with friends alot
used to have lots of energy
used to have no worries
used to have good memory...

Why does everything seem to be moving so fast ever since I stepped into the working field...

Now,
I have no time to find jokes,
I can't be cheerful at all times
I need to show a stern face frequently
I love to procrastinate
I try to minimize going out with friends
I have no energy everyday
I am worried that I would do something or say something wrong every moment
I am sooooo forgetful..

Now I really understand the saying "find the job you have interest in and you are doing your interest, not work'

The problem is I dun have any interest in any of the job until now...
Haiz..

Here, a joke for everyone...
Teacher: Tell me a sentence that starts with an "I".
Student: I is the....
Teacher: Stop! Never put 'is' after an "I". Always put 'am' after an "I".
Student: OK. I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.

This boy is musically talented...

"BOSS"

In lesson:

- Children listens to me
- Children answer my questions
- Children helps me do things
- Children follows all instructions

Therefore, I am childrens' boss...


In class:

- Trainee teacher helps me with my work
- Student teachers helps me with my work
- Chinese teacher helps me with my work

Therefore, I am teachers' boss...


At home:

- Mummy helps me wrap boxes
- Mummy helps me draw lines
- Sister helps me to cut paper
- Sister helps me to wrap boxes
- Sister's boyfriend helps me to cut papers

Therefore, I am family members' boss...

Everyone says I am the 'BOSS'
As I act like one
Am I?
Haha..
You will answer the question when you know me better!!!

Once in a while...

I should be doing FLAIR assignment....

But...

before that...

Let me update you with news...

Taking a K2 class is stress... I shouldn't complain about the nursery class last year...
I take back my words..

My forgetful mind will get me into trouble..
Forgetting where i put important things..
Forgetting to do assignment..
Forgetting to submit attendance...
Forgetting to speak to parents...

Why DONT I FORGET to EAT?? OMG!!!
Hahaha...

Let me share with you this little boy in my class...
Not exactly little, he's k2...

Haiz.... Taking care of him is like taking care of a " "
He did everything that he could to make teachers angry...
Shout and scream during lesson..
hit people and says because his bone cannot control..
Spoil people's toys and says he is purposely naughty...
Tell lies and says he didn't...

WHAT TO DO?
cannot scold, cannot do anything... haiz...
Praise him, no use..
Talk to him, forgot the moment he stood up...
constant reminder, no use, purposely did it again...

AGRH!!!

NVM.. Now a good news!!!
I will get performance bonus this friday and I'm gonna celebrate!!
Woohooo... cheers...

betrayal...

Have you ever tried being betray by friends?
I think everybody will surely have one or two experience of that..
Feel free to share the experience with me...

Today, my PREVIOUS boss came down to my workplace..
Reprimanded me for being ignorant about everything mentioned..
Reprimanded me for things that were not handed down properly..
Blamed me for being "unwilling" to learn things..
Says that she felt disappointed because she entrusted everything to me!!! (When the hell did she ever do that?)

First of all..
She reprimanded me in front of my two close ex-colleagues..
Then..
My close ex-colleague is the one whom is supposed to hand everything to me...
But..
Apparantly it is not being handed properly..
Soon..
My close ex-colleague started defending herself saying that she did pass down the things..
Furthermore..
The ex-principal elaborated so much so as to side for my ex-colleague..
So...
Don't you think that this 'CLOSE' ex-colleague has betrayed my trust..
Although..
I knew she won't admit that she has not pass down everything...

I am so sad... super sad that this kind of thing happen and it does not seem that my luck is ver good..
One of that 'CLOSE' ex-colleague used to be my partner whom taught me alot of things...
My heart just drowned to the bottom of the sea..
PLEASE!!! will someone show me true friendship???!!!?!?!?!?!!!?!?!? that i can cherish...??!??!?!

Working LiFe!?!?!?!???

I dunno what the real working life is about until now..
The journey with children begins with sour, sweet, bitter and spice....

Sour...
It's hard to get children to settle down after a long time of perseverance..
It takes a lot of energy to play with the children..
It takes a lot of effort to let children do things in the way you want it to be...
It's hard....

Sweet...
It felt good when a child hug you sincerely at the end of the day.. (Not because every other child does it)
It is nice when a child says 'I love you" from the bottom of the hard.. (Not say for the sake of saying)
It is marvelous when a child is able to recall the things that were taught and used it in daily life..
It is cool to see small funny things happening to the children in daily life..

Bitter...
It is not very nice to see someone misusing the materials after a long period of explaining..
It is worst to see or hear anything that is not very nice after repeating so many times the right way of doing things..
It is hard to teach children of different developing levels..
It is difficult to complete so many things (especially paperwork) in a short period of time..
It is sad to see the child you loved moving into other people's hand..
It is disappointed to hear the child that you meant good to say 'i dun like you'..
It is desperate to see all the staffs that you are working with leaves you..

Spice...
It is excited to know the classes that you are going to teach next year..
It is anxious to see the children improve after having the lesson..

After a long journey of a year...
I think that I'm not really suitable to teach children..
Although they are cute, they irritate me at times..
Although they are young, they have strong attitudes..
Although they will listen, they will give trouble most of the time..

I'm sick...

HihI...

Long time no update again...
Well well..
The day before yesterday I went drinking with GG again... LOLxx...
A... 2 person drank 2 bottles of wine.. But he drank more.. obviously right?
Hmmm.. that's not the main point... after that, I think he drunk le.. then make me stand in the rain and he almost drove off with my sis in the car..

That's also not the main point.. Then I reach home.. Had a very bad headache.
Then went to bed.. I think one plus fell asleep.. Then 4 plus wake up.. rely message le about 5 plus fall asleep again..
Woke up at 8 plus again. cause need to go childcare for introduction..
That is also not the main point..
After that, I went home to rest awhile before meeting freda, sally, eileen and wan xuan for dinner...
That is also also not the main main point.....
The main point is...
After I took a nap in the afternoon yesterday, my throat became very very painful, nose became very very blocked, head became very very heavy.. Now I'm coughing.. And totally no appetite.. SIANZ...

CONCLUSION: I'm sick....